Saturday, January 24, 2009 @ 11:45 AM
Change.
Is there much to say? Life's full of Ups and Downs, letting go, forgetting, forgiving, back stabbings, smiling, laughing, crying, understanding, thinking, loving, hating, sleeping, waking, walking, talking, hugging, kissing, friendship, betrayals, apologies, sincerity, enmity... What else is there? How much more? I finally realized that life's not just another train ride, you're not protect by a shelter, the friends you called friends might just turn around and stab you, the people you trusted might be the one whom would just stand there and watch you bleed to death, the people whom you love might not appreciate the love you give them, the people you care about might not care for you the same way... Whom can I trust? Whom can I love? Whom to care for? Whom to be friends with? Everyone on Earth is selfish, they only think about themselves, everyone just wants to survive, to make themselves look good, some might even go below the belt to do it, you order people around you, you'd never spare a thought for the people around you, you lost your sense because you wanted to make yourself look good, you thought you deserved what you deserved, but you don't. You're blind, blinded by power, by greed, by everything around you, you can't even see that it's crumbling. You just want what you want, you'd never spare a thought for the people who you call friends. You brain wash them, you tell them what's right and what's wrong but do you even know what's right and wrong? Ask yourself. Do you? You think you're always right, but you're wrong... You're wrong, you're so wrong. You lost yourself to power and greed, you lost yourself and you blinded yourself, no one did it for you... You did it yourself. To me you're nothing but someone who lost their own senses to materialistic wants, you lost it. You lost it. You're once a friend but now you're nothing, nothing but a senseless person whom just like to make life miserable for the people around you, for me... Just for your own wants. Everyone is selfish, I am too, just that some are just more self centered than others. You've changed, I barely know you anymore, and to think you were once a good friend. You've completely lost your marbles. And if you tell me I've lost it as well, then let me tell you, I've lost it years ago... I'm just as senseless as you, I'm just as crazy as you, I've lost my emotions completely and I'm as some would like to call it, a living zombie. I know nothing, emotions no longer has a definition in my dictionary, I no longer know how to smile, tears are all I've got, pain is all I know, fear is all I understand. Joy, Smiles, Happiness... Only came back when God gave him to me. I'm numb, cold, anti-social... I'm the living Zombie. I no longer posse a common sense, I no longer know how to judge right from wrong, no longer know what's justice, no longer know the definition of smile, no longer exist in your eyes... I posses only the knowledge to read, work, walk, write, eat and breathe. Betrayal is my best friend, back stabbings is my breakfast, he's my only first aid... He's the only one I trust. The only one that cares. So don't take him away from me... You still have the ones you called friends, the people whom can be your first aid, I only have him. My friends are there, but I'm not even sure if they'd be able to piece together a broken heart... So keep your hands away, keep them to yourselves, don't bitch behind my back because I hear them. Hurt. Is all I can blurt out now. Fuck off. I know you're reading this, go away and leave my heart alone. You stabbed me and added salt to open wounds, so fuck off. Stand by the side walks and watch me bleed, go. I don't need someone whom I can't trust, so just go.     24. January. 2009 (posting for 23. January. 2009)
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Ezann
Hellos! The name's Ezann and I was brought into this world on the 25th of March 1994. I'm taken by Hian Lee. :D I can't change a lot of things and I know one of them is the fact that I love Him. My passion is Archery & currently holding a 36 pound bow. I love sweet stuffs as well as anything with fluffy furs. I'll be a loyal friend if you don't betray me. ;) I own a baby blue Donkey named PiR^2, he's the persona of my happiness. He brings out the happiness in me. Cause somehow I can't seem to bring it out through me... So He's here to bring it out for me. Sadness overwhelms most of me... My happiness lives though Donkey.
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Saturday, January 24, 2009 @ 11:45 AM
Is there much to say? Life's full of Ups and Downs, letting go, forgetting, forgiving, back stabbings, smiling, laughing, crying, understanding, thinking, loving, hating, sleeping, waking, walking, talking, hugging, kissing, friendship, betrayals, apologies, sincerity, enmity... What else is there? How much more? I finally realized that life's not just another train ride, you're not protect by a shelter, the friends you called friends might just turn around and stab you, the people you trusted might be the one whom would just stand there and watch you bleed to death, the people whom you love might not appreciate the love you give them, the people you care about might not care for you the same way... Whom can I trust? Whom can I love? Whom to care for? Whom to be friends with? Everyone on Earth is selfish, they only think about themselves, everyone just wants to survive, to make themselves look good, some might even go below the belt to do it, you order people around you, you'd never spare a thought for the people around you, you lost your sense because you wanted to make yourself look good, you thought you deserved what you deserved, but you don't. You're blind, blinded by power, by greed, by everything around you, you can't even see that it's crumbling. You just want what you want, you'd never spare a thought for the people who you call friends. You brain wash them, you tell them what's right and what's wrong but do you even know what's right and wrong? Ask yourself. Do you? You think you're always right, but you're wrong... You're wrong, you're so wrong. You lost yourself to power and greed, you lost yourself and you blinded yourself, no one did it for you... You did it yourself. To me you're nothing but someone who lost their own senses to materialistic wants, you lost it. You lost it. You're once a friend but now you're nothing, nothing but a senseless person whom just like to make life miserable for the people around you, for me... Just for your own wants. Everyone is selfish, I am too, just that some are just more self centered than others. You've changed, I barely know you anymore, and to think you were once a good friend. You've completely lost your marbles. And if you tell me I've lost it as well, then let me tell you, I've lost it years ago... I'm just as senseless as you, I'm just as crazy as you, I've lost my emotions completely and I'm as some would like to call it, a living zombie. I know nothing, emotions no longer has a definition in my dictionary, I no longer know how to smile, tears are all I've got, pain is all I know, fear is all I understand. Joy, Smiles, Happiness... Only came back when God gave him to me. I'm numb, cold, anti-social... I'm the living Zombie. I no longer posse a common sense, I no longer know how to judge right from wrong, no longer know what's justice, no longer know the definition of smile, no longer exist in your eyes... I posses only the knowledge to read, work, walk, write, eat and breathe. Betrayal is my best friend, back stabbings is my breakfast, he's my only first aid... He's the only one I trust. The only one that cares. So don't take him away from me... You still have the ones you called friends, the people whom can be your first aid, I only have him. My friends are there, but I'm not even sure if they'd be able to piece together a broken heart... So keep your hands away, keep them to yourselves, don't bitch behind my back because I hear them. Hurt. Is all I can blurt out now. Fuck off. I know you're reading this, go away and leave my heart alone. You stabbed me and added salt to open wounds, so fuck off. Stand by the side walks and watch me bleed, go. I don't need someone whom I can't trust, so just go. 24. January. 2009 (posting for 23. January. 2009)
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