There's someone I asked over the phone today, "What is it about me that so many people hate? What is it?"
He replied: "The very same thing that attracts people to you."
So I asked: "And what might that be?"
And he replied again: "Everything, From your smile to your heart. Everything about you attracts people, those who can't accept that fact hates you simply because they are jealous. Your smile attracts people to you and after they start talking to you your personality attracts them towards you even more, I've seen so many variations of you my dear, from the cool, clam and collected to the hyperactive, cherry and wacky Ezann. You are different, remember that and don't let anyone tell you other wise. Your boyfriend loves you, I can tell, no one can tear the both of you apart... Your love will prevail after the storm, sure the storm might seem like forever but hey, wait for the sun! Cause it's worth waiting for. Don't ever, ever, ever give up on the relationship you have now. So screw those people that tells you that your relationship won't make it, screw those people who slandered you for whatever reason, screw those who tried to break the both of you apart, screw them all, next them they do it tell them to screw off or you will shoot them. Smile Ezann, I missed your smile, Haven't seen you smile in 10 months."

I just stood there, dumb founded... I didn't know what to say, I haven't really smiled in the past 10 months, well not at least everytime I talk to him over the Phone. I'm always crying, always tearing, always telling him what's wrong with my life. And today, on the way home, I called him... I told him about my feelings and those words were what he told me. And just before he hang up he said,

"I know you're willing to forgive as long as one admits his/her mistakes. I know you're just waiting for an 'I'm sorry' from them. Trust in God, have faith in him and always remember. Life is what you make it to be, God has made a plan for you it's up to you on how you wanna carry it out. Some people just lose sight of those plan after sometime and when they've reached the end of their lives, then they remember: I've not finished God's will. My dear, What's yours will always be yours, what's not yours will never be yours no matter how hard you try to make it yours. If Hian Lee was meant to be in God's master plans for you then, you two will always be together no matter how strong the wind blows or how hard the rain pours."

The girl sitting under the raining stars,
Ezann

23. May. 2009 Think about someone who annoys you, and write something positive about them.

One word.

Nothing.

Write about someone you know who spreads joy.

Um.... HIAN LEE & R yup, been in contact, talked about that latest fashion and stuff. Hehe. Hian lee you guys should know why. Whenever I'm upset, angry, unhappy, Hian Lee would always be there. In someways he really brings smiles to my face. As for R my bestest best friend? She's like theeee most reliable person on earth! Apart from God.

Well, all I can say now is that believe in God and he'll make a way. He said he'll bring justice to the injustice and I believe in him.

Father, show them the way. Guide them, I believe you can save them... I believe in you Father, I do. I know you'll help them repent. Help them show them, walk them through it. Please Father, please. Everyone deserves a chance to repent just give them a bit more time Father, Please. I beg of you, please. Show them what they're doing wrong, show them that this isn't the way to live life, show them Father show them. I beg of you to give them more time, to let them repent. I believe they will, just give them more time, for they don't know what they're doing. Like when Jesus died on the cross he said, "Forgive them Father, for they don't know what they are doing." Here I plead of you for the same request, Forgive them and show them the way... Open their eyes to truth and happiness.

I pray all these in your utmost precious and Holy Name,
Amen.

Still - Don Moen



Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God (2)

I will be still
And know You are God (2)

Be still and know
That I am God (3)

I am the God
That healeth thee (3)

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God (2)

I will be still
And know You are God (2)

That little girl holding the Bible,
Ezann.

10. May. 2009 Dine in the Dark.

A wonderful experience. Had the time of my life with Hian Lee.

I suppose in a way I finally understood what it feels like to be blind. To not be able to see. And through out the whole dinner I thought of how much it would suck to not be able to see Hian lee. It wasn't the most romantic atmosphere, but hey... Whatever the event, as long as there's Hian lee around it'll always be romantic. It's just another 20 minutes to our 10th month anniversary. It wasn't easy for the past 10 months. If it wasn't for love... I don't know how we would have survived.

I had a good long chat with the taxi driver on my way home, we talked about carrers, relationships, passion, happiness, etc. All in all, we both agreed that whatever you do in life you must'snt regret that you've done and must always be happy with your choices and decision. He told me, as long as there's love and there's happiness, nothing in this world will come between the two of you. And I found that rather true. Being happy is the most important thing in this world, and no one or thing will come between my happiness, and that's Hian Lee. (:

"Nobody in this world can tell me who I can and cannot love"

The girl by the dining table,
Ezann

8. May. 2009 Firstly a simple note to myself that 10 month anniversary is about 2 days away

Secondly to all those who said we can't make it, well in another 2 days it'll be out 10th month, so Shut It.

Thirdly to all of you who spent so much of your time to comfort me, Thank you. I know a hundred million thank yous won't be enough to pay off my debts to you guys.

Fourthly a mention of a new guy LF awesome dude, who works in the Navy.

Yup, that's all for today.

The girl by the pool,
Ezann.

7. May. 2009 Yesterday - Leona Lewis



I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun will
Rise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is it
All reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, all
The broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they
Can take the future that we'll never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all
The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the future
Holds, or least where the story goes, i never believed until now, i know i'll see you again im
Sure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on your
Face but they cant take yesterday,

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they take the music that wel never play, all the
Broken dreams take everythin, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they can
Take the future that wel never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the
Broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so much
Time, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments we
Made im lookin back on yesterday

[Repeat chorus]

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis




Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the risk that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Whatever it takes - Leona Lewis



Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

People say love
Comes and goes, but
They don't understand
What they don't know
Cause, what I feel starts
Deep inside
It's planted like a seed
That springs into life

They say it's not right
And we move too fast
But they don't know the meaning
Of what we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in our way

Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

When you're far and
We're apart
I'm really missing you
I wanna be where you are

They say it's not right (it's not right)
And it won't last (it won't last)
No point believing
What we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
I'll be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in my way

And if you're lost
I'm gonna find you
'Cause without you
I'll break down and cry
And you know why
I wanna surround you
With all my love

[Choir joins, ad libs from Leona]

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in my way

Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

Just wished you understood.

That girl by the rose beds,
Ezann

5. May. 2009 March



You tend to have an attractive personality. You're generally sexy, affectionate, shy and reserved. You have a tendency to be secretive. Although you are naturally honest, generous, and sympathetic. You love peace and serenity. You’re sensitive to others. You're also a great kisser, easily angered, and trustworthy. You're appreciative and you return kindness. You hardly show your emotions. You tend to bottle up your feelings. You tend to be observant and you like to assess others.



Scarily True. @@"

The Quizzer,
Ezann

2. May. 2009

Ezann Hellos! The name's Ezann and I was brought into this world on the 25th of March 1994. I'm taken by Hian Lee. :D I can't change a lot of things and I know one of them is the fact that I love Him. My passion is Archery & currently holding a 36 pound bow. I love sweet stuffs as well as anything with fluffy furs. I'll be a loyal friend if you don't betray me. ;) I own a baby blue Donkey named PiR^2, he's the persona of my happiness. He brings out the happiness in me. Cause somehow I can't seem to bring it out through me... So He's here to bring it out for me. Sadness overwhelms most of me... My happiness lives though Donkey.


Thomas Sabo Eternity Charm

New Coach Wallet

Lots of Hugs

2010 F1 Tickets

Bring Interact one step forward this year

Samoyed Doggie

Get more sleep!

Do well for IGCSEs

New friends

There's someone I asked over the phone today, "What is it about me that so many people hate? What is it?"
He replied: "The very same thing that attracts people to you."
So I asked: "And what might that be?"
And he replied again: "Everything, From your smile to your heart. Everything about you attracts people, those who can't accept that fact hates you simply because they are jealous. Your smile attracts people to you and after they start talking to you your personality attracts them towards you even more, I've seen so many variations of you my dear, from the cool, clam and collected to the hyperactive, cherry and wacky Ezann. You are different, remember that and don't let anyone tell you other wise. Your boyfriend loves you, I can tell, no one can tear the both of you apart... Your love will prevail after the storm, sure the storm might seem like forever but hey, wait for the sun! Cause it's worth waiting for. Don't ever, ever, ever give up on the relationship you have now. So screw those people that tells you that your relationship won't make it, screw those people who slandered you for whatever reason, screw those who tried to break the both of you apart, screw them all, next them they do it tell them to screw off or you will shoot them. Smile Ezann, I missed your smile, Haven't seen you smile in 10 months."

I just stood there, dumb founded... I didn't know what to say, I haven't really smiled in the past 10 months, well not at least everytime I talk to him over the Phone. I'm always crying, always tearing, always telling him what's wrong with my life. And today, on the way home, I called him... I told him about my feelings and those words were what he told me. And just before he hang up he said,

"I know you're willing to forgive as long as one admits his/her mistakes. I know you're just waiting for an 'I'm sorry' from them. Trust in God, have faith in him and always remember. Life is what you make it to be, God has made a plan for you it's up to you on how you wanna carry it out. Some people just lose sight of those plan after sometime and when they've reached the end of their lives, then they remember: I've not finished God's will. My dear, What's yours will always be yours, what's not yours will never be yours no matter how hard you try to make it yours. If Hian Lee was meant to be in God's master plans for you then, you two will always be together no matter how strong the wind blows or how hard the rain pours."

The girl sitting under the raining stars,
Ezann

23. May. 2009 Think about someone who annoys you, and write something positive about them.

One word.

Nothing.

Write about someone you know who spreads joy.

Um.... HIAN LEE & R yup, been in contact, talked about that latest fashion and stuff. Hehe. Hian lee you guys should know why. Whenever I'm upset, angry, unhappy, Hian Lee would always be there. In someways he really brings smiles to my face. As for R my bestest best friend? She's like theeee most reliable person on earth! Apart from God.

Well, all I can say now is that believe in God and he'll make a way. He said he'll bring justice to the injustice and I believe in him.

Father, show them the way. Guide them, I believe you can save them... I believe in you Father, I do. I know you'll help them repent. Help them show them, walk them through it. Please Father, please. Everyone deserves a chance to repent just give them a bit more time Father, Please. I beg of you, please. Show them what they're doing wrong, show them that this isn't the way to live life, show them Father show them. I beg of you to give them more time, to let them repent. I believe they will, just give them more time, for they don't know what they're doing. Like when Jesus died on the cross he said, "Forgive them Father, for they don't know what they are doing." Here I plead of you for the same request, Forgive them and show them the way... Open their eyes to truth and happiness.

I pray all these in your utmost precious and Holy Name,
Amen.

Still - Don Moen



Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God (2)

I will be still
And know You are God (2)

Be still and know
That I am God (3)

I am the God
That healeth thee (3)

When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
And I will be still
And know You are God (2)

I will be still
And know You are God (2)

That little girl holding the Bible,
Ezann.

10. May. 2009 Dine in the Dark.

A wonderful experience. Had the time of my life with Hian Lee.

I suppose in a way I finally understood what it feels like to be blind. To not be able to see. And through out the whole dinner I thought of how much it would suck to not be able to see Hian lee. It wasn't the most romantic atmosphere, but hey... Whatever the event, as long as there's Hian lee around it'll always be romantic. It's just another 20 minutes to our 10th month anniversary. It wasn't easy for the past 10 months. If it wasn't for love... I don't know how we would have survived.

I had a good long chat with the taxi driver on my way home, we talked about carrers, relationships, passion, happiness, etc. All in all, we both agreed that whatever you do in life you must'snt regret that you've done and must always be happy with your choices and decision. He told me, as long as there's love and there's happiness, nothing in this world will come between the two of you. And I found that rather true. Being happy is the most important thing in this world, and no one or thing will come between my happiness, and that's Hian Lee. (:

"Nobody in this world can tell me who I can and cannot love"

The girl by the dining table,
Ezann

8. May. 2009 Firstly a simple note to myself that 10 month anniversary is about 2 days away

Secondly to all those who said we can't make it, well in another 2 days it'll be out 10th month, so Shut It.

Thirdly to all of you who spent so much of your time to comfort me, Thank you. I know a hundred million thank yous won't be enough to pay off my debts to you guys.

Fourthly a mention of a new guy LF awesome dude, who works in the Navy.

Yup, that's all for today.

The girl by the pool,
Ezann.

7. May. 2009 Yesterday - Leona Lewis



I just cant believe your gone, still waitin for mornin to come, when i see if the sun will
Rise,in the way that your by my side, oooo where we had so much in store, tell me what is it
All reaching for, when were through building memories il hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they can take the music that wel never play, all
The broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they
Can take the future that we'll never know they can take the places that we said we will go, all
The broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday

You always choose to stay, i should be thankful for everyday, heaven knows what the future
Holds, or least where the story goes, i never believed until now, i know i'll see you again im
Sure, no its not selfish to ask for more, one more night one more day one more smile on your
Face but they cant take yesterday,

[Chorus]
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made, they take the music that wel never play, all the
Broken dreams take everythin, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday, they can
Take the future that wel never know, they can take the places that we said we will go, all the
Broken dreams, take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasnt our destiny, coz in my mind we had so much
Time, but i was so wrong, no i can believe me i can still find the strengh in the moments we
Made im lookin back on yesterday

[Repeat chorus]

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis




Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the risk that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

Whatever it takes - Leona Lewis



Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

People say love
Comes and goes, but
They don't understand
What they don't know
Cause, what I feel starts
Deep inside
It's planted like a seed
That springs into life

They say it's not right
And we move too fast
But they don't know the meaning
Of what we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in our way

Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

When you're far and
We're apart
I'm really missing you
I wanna be where you are

They say it's not right (it's not right)
And it won't last (it won't last)
No point believing
What we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
I'll be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in my way

And if you're lost
I'm gonna find you
'Cause without you
I'll break down and cry
And you know why
I wanna surround you
With all my love

[Choir joins, ad libs from Leona]

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind
To what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
'Cause you know why
There's no standing in my way

Da, da, da, da, da, da
Da, da, da, da, da, da, da [x2]

Just wished you understood.

That girl by the rose beds,
Ezann

5. May. 2009 March



You tend to have an attractive personality. You're generally sexy, affectionate, shy and reserved. You have a tendency to be secretive. Although you are naturally honest, generous, and sympathetic. You love peace and serenity. You’re sensitive to others. You're also a great kisser, easily angered, and trustworthy. You're appreciative and you return kindness. You hardly show your emotions. You tend to bottle up your feelings. You tend to be observant and you like to assess others.



Scarily True. @@"

The Quizzer,
Ezann

2. May. 2009

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