Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 5:50 PM
I've got it all... Now all I need is..
I've got a boyfriend, a few good friends and tons of people who cares and loves me. (Guys especially LOL) I've sorta sorted things out with Her... and now all I need and want is an answer for all my questions. Maybe, Bryan is right you know... Maybe I shouldn't sit here and wait for the answers to fall... Maybe... I should risk everything just for my answers so that I can move on... I don't want to spend the rest of my life hating her, she's not worth my time... I just want my answers. As much time as she need to get over him and me... I need the same amount of time maybe even more to bring myself to forgive her... Maybe that apology is far too late... Especially for her, for she had stabbed my opened wounds and added salt to it... You can't just expect me to forgive her because she apologized... It just doesn't work that way... Maybe that's why I'm not perfect... My heart is not as gracious as God's. After all that pain, sorry just doesn't cut it anymore. Right now... I need to master up all my courage to ask Him what exactly did he tell her when they broke off... What exactly happened that day that brewed up this storm... I'm going to make things right at all cost... No matter what happens I'll stand strong... I'll get my answers and leave, but I'm not ready to lose someone that dear to me... That's my greatest weakness... I love you. "Man give love for sex, Women give sex for love."
(It's just that this time it's not sex that I'm giving...)
10. November. 2008
