Wednesday, February 11, 2009 @ 9:53 PM
I wonder.
Hello.I'm sorry but I'm really going into boring long post today... Some thing's bugging me again...
I suppose Hian Lee & I have learned something out of that past 7 months... We've been through a lot just a lot. And I finally realized that no one can control us, no one can tell us who we CAN and CANNOT love. This is our relationship, but somehow God seemed to be testing us, our loyalty, our faith in Him as well as in each other, for now things are finally moving smoothly, we've braved the weather... We've walked through the darkest part of our relationship, but there are so much more to go. Hian Lee & I are just alike, it's like he's me just without the boobs and added a penis and two balls. Somehow I suppose he IS the one I'm looking for, my other half. There was this Arabian myth, it goes something like this: "At first God created man, but he felt that there was something missing in man or rather something that he has that made him too perfect, thus God split the man in half producing a woman and this woman was the exact copy of the man thus, being the perfect lover. Problem is God saprated them stating that the missing pieces of a puzzle will always return to form the perfect piece... And if that myth was right then I think I've found my other half... He's as stubborn, as idiotic, as retarded, as silly, as obsessed, as crazy and we both love Archery... And I seem to be the only one who can take his shit... Maybe perfection has always been in front of me just that I've never taken time off to notice it. Maybe Perfection is Hian Lee because I see no flaws in him... To me, he's perfect, flawless and because of my obsession with perfection, do you really think I'll just let it walk away from me? I highly doubt so. . .
I'm highly ambitious maybe too much for my own good, I want to achieve something impossible, something people thought it can only be a dream, something people thought I can never achieve in this life time, I want to achieve the impossible and right now Winning the YOG is my next goal. Once I have a target I'll stop at nothing to achieve it, that's me that's Ezann, if it means to tire myself out I will, I'll stop at nothing to achieve my goal, my determination is what makes me so stubborn. Unless you can give me a good reason why I shouldn't do that I want to do, I will go all out to do it...
I want to find a cure for cancer.
I want to find a cure for Aids.
I want to win the YOG.
I want to go to the Imperial College of London.
I want to be able to save the world from poverty.
I want to be able to stop war.
I want to give less privileged students a chance to study.
I want to be able to make the blind see.
I want to be able to make the deaf hear.
I want to be able to be there for someone.
I want to be the best doctor in the world.
I want to be the number one archer.
I want to be the best out of everything.
I want to be the first woman to win an F1 Grand Pix.
I want to be Perfect. . .
I want to be the Perfect Girlfriend/wife.
I want, I want, I want. These are my ambitions, my dreams, my hopes for the future.
Too ambitious isn't it? And I know I will stop at nothing to achieve them. . .
Valentines Day in 3 days. . . Sighs.
Well I should go now. I have a long day tomorrow. I'm running Out of time.
Hello Adi. (:
11. February. 2009
P.S. I love you.
